BE BOLD

Fear of failure has always kept me on the edge of my seat, almost ready to dive off the edge into discovery, but hesitating slightly while my feet dangle above the danger below, the danger of the unknown.

Each day I follow a pretty regular routine, as I would see it. I wake up, get ready, go to work, drive home, watch tv, go to bed, REPEAT. Sometimes, I do something fun, those are the moments I live for. But mostly I follow the monotonous pattern and sit and sigh at the thought of an adventurous life, that isn't mine.

Searching online I seek guidance to who I'm supposed to be. I look up a career path I should consider, I get discouraged and then go back to the same old routine, again. I have these ups and downs with my mood, with my drive for more. In the pit of my stomach, I can feel it, I can feel the earnest desire to discover my life's path, to discover happiness through the life I live. Yet day after day, I sit down and wish for a different life, but I barely put those thoughts into action.

So now, I am daring to be more. I will fearlessly and courageously thrust myself towards the darkness, towards the fears of failure and try.

What has truly struck a different chord this time around is this quote I read online

"Remember that while there's power in taking on something new, there's also a greater chance of failure because of your lack of experience. Embrace the failure; it's not the opposite of success, it's a necessary component. The opposite of success is sitting still." ( The Positivity Blog )

That last sentence, "The opposite of success is sitting still." It really made me realize that all I have been doing is sitting still. Not even trying, because the fear of failure was so great, I didn't even want to try, because trying and failing felt worse than trying at all. But this post really woke me up.

I literally had to type into Google "How to Be Bold/" It seems silly, but looking that question up really opened me up to the answers of questions I had been asking myself for a few years now. Where am I going? Who do I want to be? Where do I see myself in 5 years? Small questions, yet weighted with the heaviness of "I don't know."

But the thing is, I do know. I know what I want, who I want to be, and where I want to go, because the answer is simple. I want to be bold, I want fulfillment, and I want to be where my loved ones are. If I can just break down my desires to the bare minimum, at least I can have a foundation to work from. I can be bold by taking a photography class or a piano lesson. I can be fulfilled by pushing myself to new experiences, and I can travel to visit friends and family and still be where I need to be to succeed.

I hope my little post helps someone out there struggling to push past the fear of the unknown, of hovering over the edge of something new.. Please, read The Positivity Blog: How to Be Bold. Maybe you'll get a jump start like me. Take the chance, try something new. Be you. Be Bold.